Can anybody find me somebody to love?

A Proper Time

"...Do not awaken love before it's time..." It's so hard when I'm so ready to be in love. Or at least have a boyfriend and think about maybe being in love. Oh, my Lord. See how desperate my heart is? It's clutching at every possible thing it can to say "Will you love me? Will you let me love you?" Why does it seem that I am always too much? Why am I always pushed away? Why am I so intense? Why do guys find me so intimidating? Why have I never had a boyfriend?

I don't understand.

However, I trust that all of this is molding me into the person my love will fall in love with. That I will fall in love with that person in part because of this aspect of my life. That it's all leading to a grander love, a grander purpose; that of an infinite, unyielding love that will never be reneged.